I can't help but think it's funny that all of my posts are relationship related.

So there's this girl. I've known her for a while now - and she's truly a genuinely good person. She's truly a nice girl. And she's fantastic.

Now, I know something about myself. I wear my heart on my sleeve. I am very quick to fall very hard for a girl. This is something that I've known for a long, long time. It's something my mom told me I'd have trouble with when I was four or five years old. For example:

A long, long time ago, at about that time (when I was four or five years old), my sister Stefanie was having a sleep over. I had a bunk bed/futon in my room at the time, and I loved it with a passion. My sister and her friend asked to sleep in my room so they could have the two beds, and neither of them would have to sleep on the ground. My sister asked, "Tommy, can we sleep in your room?"

I firmly responded, "No!"

My sister's friend asked, "Pleeease, Tommy?"

Immediately, without giving it a thought, I said in a soft and defeated voice, "Okay..."

My mother laughed, and told me it was something that she hoped I wouldn't do in the future for fear of me getting stomped all over.

So, as you can tell, wearing my heart on my sleeve will only feed into my thought that this girl is magnificent. No, I won't mistake her for my one-and-only. I understand I'm in high school. I understand this won't last forever. But it's nice while it's around.

Alicia is her name. She's a gorgeous girl who truly believes that no one would like her. She's one of those people that keeps all her feelings shelled up inside, but she's really a funny person. She's one of those that can point out something you said that was stupid or dumb, and make sure even you were laughing about it. She's insanely cute.

We decided to go to prom together quite a while back, but it wasn't truly finalized until tonight. It was a single phone call that changed many things.

I wore my confidence through my voice, and said, "So, are we just going as homies, or are we going as something more?"

"Are we?"

"Yeah, I'm asking."

"I dunno. Do you WANT to go as just homies?"

At this point, I'm worried. I don't want to say something that would make it awkward.

"Well, do you want to go as something more?"

"I...I just feel like..Eh..." She trails off before exclaiming, "I have to go."

"No you don't. Finish your sentence. What're you feeling?"

"No, I really have to go. Didn't you hear my dad?"

"Yeah, he can wait thirty seconds. Tell me what's on your mind."

"...Okay. I just feel like you can do so much better. You could go to prom with someone else and have way more fun."

Did she really not realize this is exactly how I felt about her? That this is what I was afraid of?

"Alicia, that is the exact opposite of how I feel. I feel like if I go with you, I'd have real fun. You're so not drama-filled and so completely genuine, I feel like I'd have true fun with you. But if I went with someone else, it'd be bullshit fun. Know what I mean?"

She laughs. "Yeah, I know what you mean."

"So, are you interested in going as more than just friends? I mean, I'd be more than willing to go if you want to. If you're interested in going as more than friends, then let's do it. Otherwise, don't worry about it." After I said this, I was hopping on the inside because it came off EXACTLY how I wanted it to. It was one of those no-stress kinda lines. It worked so perfectly, it was beautiful. It made it seem like I would be totally okay with not going as more than friends (Which I would be, mind you). It was so great.

"Okay. Let's do it."

"Sweet! Alright, this should be cool."

"Yep! But I really have to go now."

"Alright, Alicia, I'll talk to you tomorrow. Or the next day. Whenever."

"Okay! Bye!"

I cannot express how excited I am. This is the second time I was asked to prom, and I know this. But this time I feel so much more sure than last time.

We'll see how everything goes. I have a history of letting emotion blind me from the real situation. I'm going to do what I can to avoid that now.